I recently had an ultrasound and the tech found a few things that were abnormal.Two years after discovering my cancer...before every test I find myself terrified. The thoughts and the feelings you endure seem to cripple you. I do recognize that I scraped by this year and for that I am grateful. Although, in my heart I find myself grieving for those who have not been so lucky.
There have been so many of my friends who have been affected, changed or touched by cancer. I can think of a childhood friend who has faced cancer and beaten it. A friend who is currently battling with reoccuring cancer. Another who's dad is facing cancer again. A dear friend whose husband is starting chemo. soon. My heart is so heavy...this has been on my mind esp. this past month. I do want to say to these friends that I love you...You are all amazing and have all had such a profound influence on who I am today. There have been many times when I have not closed my prayers. I just needed that extra comfort and to feel that little bit of peace.You have all given me some form of this peace. I wish I could give you that peace... but know it will be heaven sent. I wish there was more I could do. I am praying for you, I am thinking of you and your families.
2 comments:
xonjacove
How sweet are you! This made my cry reading it! My little brother's wife had a rare form of brain cancer as a child and she feels the same way before each test, and Leif's dad passed away 3 1/2 years ago of cancer. What a nice way to honor your friends!!! AND how great you were able to catch yours and be a survivor:) :)
Sure love ya Leah, you are so sweet and have such an awesome sensitivity to people who are going through BIG and hard things. Thank you for being you.
Post a Comment